Initial Jitters...

So am finally blogging.
Pretty scary,the actual process though.D idea seemed pretty easy at first...just sit back and write up whatever comes to mind.But there's something with the process of sitting before a PC,facing d monitor-back straight,hands on keyboard,eyes fixed on screen..that when u go:'Ok,mind..shoot good stuff now..' U almost have this sensation of being a Jockey..or an athlete at the starting line...and d gun goes off and u run..in this case..ur thoughts run..words come pouring in..flashes of ideas,snippets of daily life..n it comes faster n faster..getting all blurry n overlapped... and ur fingers dont seem to catch up,yet you type on..
..and then,a jolt:Damn..somebody myt stuble upon this..go through it all...form opinions...get to see my inner world..A part of you says..well..this is what it is supposed to be..An open diary..infact blog's a therapy for your introverted soul..Let the whole world be a witness to your thoughts..to your life..no matter how insignificant they are..no matter how uninteresting they are..you are here,so lets leave a sign..it may be d most obscure and utterly forgotteable,but it will,nonetheless,give you the satisfaction of having been brave enough to make one.
And there's d other part..which knows he's wrong..guilty infact..and he stays silent..no fighting back with words for him.He silently slips ,in almost inudible steps,into melancholy..and the loud,vibrant being starts melting in the bluish bile..protesting,yet powerless before the silent might of d consuming fluid.
And then..u no longer know wht is it that is worth writing..u no longer can think of anything that will live upto your idea of a first blog..
and with a sigh..u say...
later.